-iWrote 6/01/2005 07:06:00 PM

Pet names

Weird..but some days back i was on the phone with someone and i felt a lil offended by a certain term tt she used to call this other girl. Maybe coz it is something that only i get the privalegde of enjoying the status of it. Even my friends treat me the way tt i am supposed to be treated with tt kinda pet name. Ah..luxury..loved by one and all. Haahaa..ok..i'm digressing. Anyway, i feel so pampered. Like a princess. Esp by YH. Love her so much..MUACK! A kiss for my dear dear YH. haahaa... *wink* Everyone treats me like a princess. But i miss my Princess. Wish she was still ard.

Death

Yesterday i had a really difficult day and today wasn't exactly tt much better but i realised that i am on the verge of giving way. Sometimes i wonder why my manager thinks that hiring fresh grads means that they have less or no problems other than those that are work related. The problems i face daily are so much that no one really knows what's going on in my mind. And for the 1st time in 6mths, i got my 1st complaint. And it is not from a patient. It is from one of the staff from another section of the business office. My officers talked to me about it and of everything that i said, i made one true statement. "With all these problems that i am facing, the one taking the leap would be me. Not my mum. The one who'll get depression first would be me and not my mum." (p/s let me explain tt my mum isn't the one driving me nuts. It's many different stuff put together.)

Compliments

My officer, J, complimented me last night. Saying my mentality as compared to those of my age is more mature. And she actually compared me to herself back then when she was my age. Surprising. She even said that i was intelligent. Given that i am new in my office, i am able to give her good suggestions to problems i had never heard or seen before during the time i had been working there. But then again, what good is a mature mind and intelligence when i don't think i will get my pay rise and/or promo till a few yrs later.

Money

It isn't true that i love or like money. But i need it to solve my problems. Maybe not all but at least i get half my problems solved. Right now, i really am wondering what i was thinking when i decided not to go back to my attachment Co. to work. I could easily ask for 1.7. That, is alot of cash. At least 200 more on my take home. Faint. I really feel like kicking myself. And...the most impt thg is..i only need to work till 8pm at most on my own time and it isn't everyday. Not like in this shit hole where by i can even stay in till midnight to do my stuff. Mind you, that is not considered late. I had a few colleagues who stayed in till 4 in the morning to finish their work on their own time. That, is how dysfunctional the office is. Complain to MOM? Pls..don't be ridiculous. We do not have any case. It is on our own time and at our own will. Then of course we can choose not to stay in till so late but who'll finish our work for us? It's a very thin line between losing your job and wanting to go hm early to rest. Quit? Well..the job market is so quiet out there i rather die in my office. Ha! Unless someone has a job offer for me whereby i can go home on time. *grin* That'll be so nice.